My Philosophy on life

•February 19, 2009 • Leave a Comment

For those of you that know me well, know that I am a huge fan of Chuck Palahniuk. I, however, have an extremely hard time reading a book, I just don’t have the attention span. I do love to read quotes from him and listen to audio books.
I feel that he is a literary genious, very thought provoking, and controversial. And, I love it. He writes about people wanting to be alone, and then not wanting to be alone. Then, doing it all over again, alone, not alone, alone, not alone…
For instance, in Fight Club, he writes about a man who visits support groups in order to feel better about his own pathetic life. In that novel, there are several quotes that I love dearly.
One for instance is “Its only after you’ve lost everything, that your free to do anything.”. This quote to me is so true. I, years ago, had a bad problem with drugs, mainly pills. I lost everything, and I mean everything. A great job, my apartment, my new Durango, and, all of my friends. But, that was by choice. The only way for me to change, was to change everything I knew. I left every friend I had, moved and basicly started over. I left some friends of mine, whom I miss very much, behind. But, were they really TRUE friends? Or were they around me because I had money and the contacts? I, will never know.
After I lost everything, by choice, I started my life over. Ever since then I have not been able to forgive myself for what I have done to my family and myself. I am slowly forgiving myself. I, very much regret spending time with my father, and will never forgive myself for that. I miss him very much and always will. He, was the greatest man I have ever known, and I only hope that someday I will become the man that he was.
Someone once said, ” A man doesn’t become a man until he loses his father.” I understand that know, however I would give my life to have him back for my mother and sister. Since his passing, I believe, that I have become a real man. One, responsible for his actions, and one trying to make a diference in this world.
Chuck Palahniuk said “We all die, the goal isn’t to live forever, it’s to create something that will.” Another great quote that I believe in. What that is for me, I am not sure yet. Hopefully, I will figure it out soon. Primarily, because I’m not sure how much longer I’m going to be around. But, if, someone reading this, or someone I know. If I have changed their life, then I guess I have accomplished that goal. That is all I can hope for.


Doctors vs Guns

•February 11, 2009 • Leave a Comment



(A)   The number of physicians in the U.S. is 700,000.

(B)   Accidental deaths caused by Physicians per year are 120,000.

(C)   Accidental deaths per physician is 0.171.
Statistics courtesy of U.S. Dept of Health and Human Services.

Now think about this:


(A)   The number of gun owners in the U.S. is 80,000,000.  (Yes, that’s 80 million)

(B)   The number of accidental gun deaths per year, all age groups, is 1,500.

(C)   The number of accidental deaths per gun owner is .000188.
Statistics courtesy of FBI.

So, statistically, doctors are approximately 9,000 times more dangerous than gun owners.

Remember, ‘Guns don’t kill people, doctors do.’


Please alert your friends to this alarming threat.  We must ban doctors before this gets completely out of hand!

Out of concern for the public at large, I withheld the statistics on lawyers for fear the shock would cause people to panic and seek medical attention!

How to act in a restaurant.

•February 8, 2009 • Leave a Comment

There a few things people should know before going out to eat. First of all, if you don’t have the money to tip accordingly, don’t go. Secondly, things happen, people make mistakes, sometimes, business becomes overwhelming and food doesn’t come out as fast as it should. Sometimes, the food isn’t EXACTLY what you ordered, or how you ordered it. Mistakes happen every day in all aspects of life. Don’t be rude or disrespectful. Act like an adult. And, for God’s sake don’t be afraid to send something back, no one is going to do anything to your food. That kind if stuff does NOT happen anymore. Kitchen guys don’t care why you sent it back, they just want to get the job done so that they can go home, just like everyone else in this world. It’s just a job, we aren’t trying to cure cancer or anything. We are just feeding people. If you don’t have any respect for people just trying to do their job, stay home.

Life after cancer…

•February 6, 2009 • 6 Comments

I’m not really sure what to write here, but I feel the need. Ten years ago I was diagnosed with cystic renal cell cancer. I had two thirds of my right kidney removed. Now, ten years later, I have gone for a “routine” follow up CT scan. Later, a nurse from my doctors office called and left me a message to call her back regarding a “test” they wanted to do. ??? When I called her back, she said they wanted to schedule another CT scan with contrast, which I am alergic to, and an MRI. Again,??? Why would a doctor risk an allergic, possibly fatal reaction to contrast? I called back to ask why, and got little response. I, then asked if the doctor, himself, would call me back to explain. And was told yes, this afternoon, be called me back. I asked why, these “tests were necessary?”. I was told, that, there is a “nodule” in my right lung, three in my left kidney, and one on top of what was left of my right kidney. A “grand” total of five possible tumors. Now, what am I to think? Am I going to live for a while, or die within months? Who’s to know?
Eight years ago, my father was taken from me in a hunting accident. One of the greatest men I have ever known. Two years later, my mothers horse farm was burned to the ground by an employee, with a record of arson, before he was eighteen. I, was diagnosed with cancer at twentysix, after working to save peoples live for seven years. How is this fair? What have I, or my family done to deserve this? Now, I, face it again, and again, I ask why. How is this fair? What have I done to deserve this? What has my mother, a wonderful person, done, to deserve this? What, have I done, that was soo wrong that I am being punished for? Please, someone tell me, because I, do not, understand. I, am a good person. Yes, I have not been perfect, but who has? Is this God’s plan? Well, if it is, it doesn’t make any sense. Why, am I being punished? That is all I want to know, why?

A quote I love.

•February 2, 2009 • Leave a Comment

“Get out of your apartment. Meet a member of the opposite sex. Stop the excessive shopping and masturbation. Quit your job. Start a fight. Prove you’re alive. If you don’t claim your humanity, you will become a statistic.” Chuck Palahnuik


What do you think?

•July 25, 2008 • Leave a Comment

How do you feel about the shape of the world today?  Personally, I think everything is going to hell.  Why is it that more people vote for the next American Idol than the Presidential Election?  Then we want to bitch about the results we get.  No one likes the President we have now, but we are the ones that put him there.  I know, hind site is 20/20.   Quit bitching about it, accept it for what it is, and make sure we get it right this time around.